this was meant to be done so long ago...
maybe it was the introductions that made it so hard to do...every time somehow trying to find the right words..to perhaps bleed open my existence...for once not to confuse..but to state so very simply so as to leave no room for misinterpretations...i have forever wanted to be very easy to read as a person..turns out that isnt really working..so here i am on one of classic just-go-and-do-it-we'll-kill-ourselves-over-it-later...impulse(tho the killing part hardly applies i thought i'll let it be..this is supposed to be a little like "about me")..and a little high on the undeniably potently dangerous combination of events given as below for the general public...if any

a)i think i just lost my best friend...cant even say much about that..probably my fault anyway..was my fault...she's been the very best thing to happen to me..and i had to be stupid enough to screw it up!!!
b)the man i love is going to be just a little teeny tiny bit out of reach...120 km actually...and did i mention that i really really need to get over him???..coz he happens to be "just me friend"..how typically bollywood?...ha..i wish!..coz he probably is just my friend...and you know whats worse..before..he came along..i was really really immune to attraction..thats right..i was nearly asexual..had a very neat tolerance thing going for men..in tht sense..all amoeba like


anyway what weighs me down is this...
in two days it will be 120 kms...
but with her i dont even know the comfort of numbers...
i feel a little angry...a little sad..and maybe sarcasm is the only relief which numbs it all for me..