is there anything on the face of this planet that hurts more than love???
i told him....
i had to stop the cycle..never mind that i'd probably still keep putting up the diary entries...
maybe just to remind myself how happy this high made me...that it was real...the utterly absurd way in which I've behaved...
it took almost a half an hour of avoiding it,of coming close to it and finding myself incapable of speech,of talking about every useless topic i could find to cling to after every failed attempt....
and then...
"i think I've fallen for you..."
a willing lamb to the slaughter...did i mention that he once asked me what i felt for him before proclaiming that he's just my friend?
he was going that day...leaving the college...it meant no more walks...no more accidental run-ins that used to leave me ecstatic...no more knowing that he was here and i would get to meet him soon enough...
couldnt say it then..call it weakness...call it my refusal to accept what i suppose i always knew in my heart of hearts...that he doesnt feel the same way
and yes...i fell...
fell..broke my nose and a couple of toes...
and my heart bled....
p.s:he said he wanted to clear this up...wants to be friends only...and didnt want me to waste my career and time...i had to fall for someone practical!
